If you’re expecting to hear a story about how I had something traumatic happen to me or that I almost didn’t make it, you are going to be disappointed. Yeah, I know usually wake-up call stories are dramatic.. Mine’s not, but it is no less inspiring to me.
The wake-up call happened a few days before today. I was laying in my bed feeling sick from a cold that seemed to go on forever, an annoying itch in my throat that I need to painfully cough away every 2 minutes, and a back ache that I have been suffering ever since I became…FAT. I have gained 26 kilograms for the past 5 years from an ideal 70 kg and I haven’t been able to lose that weight. For those who count in pounds, I now weigh 211 pounds or 96 kg and I’m 5 ft 9 Asian dude. For me, that’s heavy. Not morbidly obese, but still not good.
I woke up slowly, trying to keep my back as straight as possible to avoid any more pain. Not an easy feat. These are the simple things that we take for granted when we’re healthy. My head is pounding and my mind seemed clouded by the sickness. I walked towards the bathroom and took a look at myself in the mirror.
Gosh, I looked horrible. Then I lit a cigarette, and had my first morning smoke. After a while, sharp throbbing pains in my left chest started again like many days before. I have always known that the symptoms I’m having is because of my weight and my smoking. But I never care enough to do anything about it. I have always thought that there will always be next time. But then I realized what if there isn’t? What if the right time is always now. You can never say later, because later will always be later. And when you realize you actually want to do something about it, it’s too late. I have made a promise to my gf that I will try to live healthy before we get married because I want to have healthy children and try to live a life of quality together. We are getting married in about 7 months. So after much delaying, I have finally decided to fulfil that promise.
I need to get back to my ideal weight of 70-72 kg, stop smoking, perform more at my career, and just be a nicer person in general.
This is my first blog entry and may this entry be a declaration of the promise that I have pledged to commit. May my journey be a smooth one.